HERSELF

Hello. ok timecheck its 2.03 in the morning ! im not yet asleep because i was waiting for my boyfriend finish downloading songs.

Tonight was a different night for me. Heres why. Ok, i really, and i mean really really, wanted my very own lappy since like, i dont know, Forever i think. But somehow, somewhen, something, threesome, i didnt buy it till now. Really weird if i would recap cause my attachment work pay was 900+ that time. I really wonder why i didnt buy myself a lappy. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Oh well anyway, so as i was saying, i really wanted a lappy and ofcourse my boyfriend knew about it too. So after a very long time i kept complaining about it,(actually i was complaining to myself cause im depressed for being toooooooo bored at home doing nothing and still didnt get my lappy), my boyfriend did something, which to me it could get him into trouble. It was borrowing me his moms lappy. He surprised me when he came to my house this morning. I love it sooooooo much cause now i have something to do at home when he's schooling or at nigt when i cant sleep. BUT ! i also have doubts cause my type of person reallllllly HATE borrowing. It makes me feel insecure and kept wondering when must i gave it back. Its really disturbing you know to have this habit. So now im confuse. But even when im confuse, im still using the lappy right now updating my blog. Hah. Couldnt resist it. OK now, gotta go.

To hubby: dear, i really appreciate what you've done. But you know i have doubts right? I wanted to give it back tomorrow but you said use it first and dont worry cause everythings gonna be fine. I hope so too sayang. Please oh please promise me you wont get into trouble for this. Its really pressurising borrowing someone something especially if its expensive, sooo imma get myself a lappy as soon as possible so that i could give back this lappy to you soon. Dont worry bout me much. Iloveyou.

on the phone with boyfriend now.