Sooo. Look whos back. HAHHA ! This is the awaken of a dead blog. Maybe i should update sometimes i mean this is a life journal. We teenagers dont write nomore. We type. And when we type, we were complaining life's shit to someone. So better if i could tell my sincere and loyal blog right here. Atleast i could talk it out and pretty sure noones complaining how boring my my story is. HAHA. Anyway whats up. I seriously have no idea where to start. Well .. right now is the 9th day of Ramadhan. So far i havent miss a day. And i started praying this year. Like seriously praying. I took all my studs out. And lastly just seeking for forgiveness to god. Thats all.

When he dont like, he dont care. Or he pretends that he care and will forget about it as soon as its done. Luxury. Money. Fame.

Heeeeeey.

Whats up? K having insomnia nowadays. Did'nt go home yesterday, Scooter-ing with Aca Wf, Heesham Levine and my beloved Juice Versce. Suhz should have tag along but he's mum caught him sneeking out yesterday night. True or not, We dont know. Went home at 6+ in the morning. Bathe, slept for few hours then now timecheck is 7.04pm. AND wallah ! boyfriend called to go down now. perfect timing.

BYE !

I got a scooter ! We are the beautiful people. Haha! ok must sleep. Now 8.02am. Later must meet boyfriend. Baru balek ton with Bf, Hisham & Aca. Penat nih ! bye.

I love my boyfriend, Muhamad Haikal Bin Abdul Razak.

Its 4.30am. I couldnt sleep. Dont blame the comp cause i've tried shutting it down for awhile just now but it makes no difference. Boyfriend last chat was, " hhby blom nak sleep, hhby nak baring jap jer ". And i lost him. He did went to sleep. Tried calling but no one pick up.

Right now listenin' to Marvin's Room by Drake. Preety calming mood. Bored, ofcourse. Done with facebook, nothing else to do with it. Empty, night mode brain so i didnt think making mixtape would be a good idea. so decided to blog. Now im done, what should i do? :?

Hello. ok timecheck its 2.03 in the morning ! im not yet asleep because i was waiting for my boyfriend finish downloading songs.

Tonight was a different night for me. Heres why. Ok, i really, and i mean really really, wanted my very own lappy since like, i dont know, Forever i think. But somehow, somewhen, something, threesome, i didnt buy it till now. Really weird if i would recap cause my attachment work pay was 900+ that time. I really wonder why i didnt buy myself a lappy. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

Oh well anyway, so as i was saying, i really wanted a lappy and ofcourse my boyfriend knew about it too. So after a very long time i kept complaining about it,(actually i was complaining to myself cause im depressed for being toooooooo bored at home doing nothing and still didnt get my lappy), my boyfriend did something, which to me it could get him into trouble. It was borrowing me his moms lappy. He surprised me when he came to my house this morning. I love it sooooooo much cause now i have something to do at home when he's schooling or at nigt when i cant sleep. BUT ! i also have doubts cause my type of person reallllllly HATE borrowing. It makes me feel insecure and kept wondering when must i gave it back. Its really disturbing you know to have this habit. So now im confuse. But even when im confuse, im still using the lappy right now updating my blog. Hah. Couldnt resist it. OK now, gotta go.

To hubby: dear, i really appreciate what you've done. But you know i have doubts right? I wanted to give it back tomorrow but you said use it first and dont worry cause everythings gonna be fine. I hope so too sayang. Please oh please promise me you wont get into trouble for this. Its really pressurising borrowing someone something especially if its expensive, sooo imma get myself a lappy as soon as possible so that i could give back this lappy to you soon. Dont worry bout me much. Iloveyou.

on the phone with boyfriend now.

What if a conversation was caught between a girl and your boyfriend which gives you curiousty to know what is it about but as you clicked on the conversation it disappear because coincidently your boyfriend just deleted it.

Im not jealous arent i ?

When he was caught red handed, He told me the whole conversation since he has deleted it.

But was it the truth ?
Why must he delete that particular conversation only ?
and on the conversation itself, why he only delete his conversation and not hers ?
what have they been really talk about?
Is he keeping anything from me ?

No No No. Im a good girlfriend. Smile Would solve everything. :)

Hello

Phewh ! Atlast decison made. Trust me, it took alooot of courage to decide. Anyway, what is this about. OK, im actually confuse cause since my point of the nitec result werent enought to go to higher nitec, im not sure where to go. HOWEVER, i wanna continue school. So after alot and lots and lots of talking and straining brains off (with boyfriend encouragement and advice), i've made the decision.

So whats up ? I've decided to try my luck by just applying higher nitec courses. And while waiting for the result on 14Feb, I've decided to find a part-time job. Incase i still cant qualified to go to higher nitec, atleast i still had my job. Clever huh. Credits to my beloved MuhdHaikal. <3

Speaking about him, What about our relationship ? Sooo far its been 10 months. Still hanging on. He kept talking bout his snapbacks and working on his mixtapes. Wanted a Nike red shoe and a bag. Still with his swags ofcourse and definitely his arrogance. He is a very nice guy actually. Maybe he's just too obsessive with what he's doing now. Rappers and rapping. But thats fine. I'll support him no matter what, i hope. I wanted to talk to him about it, about his "over-confidence" and feeling high of himself isnt a really good idea. But i've once told him, "I should have just let you be who you wanna be cause im not better myself". Sooo yah. urgh drop the topic. bye

Yay 2nd post of the year ! Haha.

Today was boyfriend's first day ITE. Sooo to make him ready and not sleepy or restless for his first day, Have to put in effort to wake up early in the morning (6am), call and wake him up, do his breakfast and meet him under my block. Wasnt tiring as expected infact i felt fresh. Talk and smoke a stick then off he go to school and i went jogging at Artpark. Hahha! Preeeety weird but somehow i did 800m run. Heeeeeee. Will do better next time though. ok thats all.

Question of the day : Is boyfriend gonna be ok?

HELLO !

Ok its funny updating blog. Its been a looooooooong time. Anyways, HELLO 2012 !
Urm where do i start?

Okay urm .. I will be graduating ITE next week. Its the end of my 1 year course (retail). I didnt get to Higher Nitec because im short of 5 points. So as its 2012, i've decided to focus on Cash. Gonna work part time at my ex-attachment company, Camouflage. Oh yah, about it. During my retail course, i've gone through 2 months attachment at this company called Camouflage. Its was okaaay. Met my "mentor", Jocelyn. She was very kind but blur. haha. She bought me Christmas Present! hehe. And so after that 2 months attachment i didnt continue cause i thought maybe i wanna continue school. But seems that my point wasnt enough, i thouht why waste more time for education? Also thought of applying Higher Nitec for night class while working part time. But again, Why school? Hahah. And yah. Thats about it. Im basically free from education atlast. And im so glad that my parents agreed and respect my decision. I Love You ! Haha.

My boyfirend? Hehehe. I am still long lasting with my beloved MuhamadHaikal. Since 17 March 2011 untill now. Couldnt deny, sooo much things we've gone through. Hell Lot. But we're survived. This relationship was much different then any other relationship i've had before. Honestly, i never thought of marriage before because i always thought that im too young for anything like this .. untill now. Haikal opens my heart to change. And i do realised how much i change myself. It was a miracle when a "setan" suddenly change. Haha. Now, i do believe the power of Love. I love you dear and thanks for everything.

Lastly, Happy New Year !

Huhu! Da lame tk update. 6 June exam. Bye.

Gotta confess..

Its just not me, Im not myself, Everything is fake and everybodys fool. FUCK GOD DAMN IT.

At the same time, i knw i wont regret it if im done getting over it.

But still, for now, it hurts and i cnt get it out of my mind.

Hatred by your sister leads to an awkwardness towards your family. =(

Heyya'll !
Just got back from hanging out with bf. K not exactly just got back, took some time searchin for internet connection. Urgh!
Anyway, whats new? Well .. I've been thinkin of future. HAHA. Yup random but its all planned.
This is how it goes .. 2 more years studying in ITE. Turn 19, another 3 years in Poly. Turn 22, next 3 year permanent job then turn 25, marriage. Hows that ? Cool huh. Now thinking since im gonna study for the next 5 years, how am i suppose to save $50 000 ? It is the estimation amount of enrollment and a car. I really want a car ! Hmm ..

Currently in class. Urgh. Restless.

Anyway .. What happen during our 1st Month Anniversary at 17April2011 ?
Due to Hafiz reccommendation, Me and Bf went to Little India to find this mama food shop which is known to sell the best food. HOWEVER, we got to know that we need to use hands instead of utensils. Plus, we were surrounded by "all blacks" and the smell ! Urgh. So .. We went walk and walk searchin for other foodcourt. ATLAST, we found a mall and so we decide to go banquet instead. It was fine. The food was nice. UNTILL, I found cockcroach leg in my food ! My face changes then i left. Bf laughed at me but im glad i found it. I told bf he might had eaten the whole body cause he ate the food clean. Anyway, we went on to Istana Park and had a good chat. Then off to meet Hafiz and Fira at Scape. I swear we laugh ALOT ! At 10+ i think, bf send me home. I must say, overall it was .. PERFECT. ILoveYa Muhd Haikal. <3 So much things happen during our 1st anniversary. And you know, those thing that happen, has left sweet memories for us. :)

Yay ! Hacking success ! Nw i cn berFB in class. K ntg much just ... 3 more days for anni. :D

He bought me necklace. I love you bodoh !

NurShaleen & RusydiAzman broked up at 4March2011.
Oh well, im still hot. <3
~ Ass ~

HALO ! Im sitting in a school library with Elle right by my side. HAHAH ! Waiting for Kakak Melatah to kluar class pukul 5. Kalau tidak dah balek dah 2 hours ago tawuk ! hahah !

K first of all, you guys should know that my blog will never be dead. Kadang tu busy sesangat nk update.

Well anyway, to catch up whats going on these days .. Hmm first few weeks of 2011 aku matae ngn budak cine ni. Classmate sendirik. HAHA ! Name die Kengleong. Unfortunately 5 days later kte break. K i just tell you one of the reason why eh, die Over-control Fullstop Hahha !

Then .. 1 month plus later, i contacted with seorang insan ni bername Rusydi Azman. Sekali tersangkut dah .. hahha ! Yes, which means kte matae. Haha ! Soo far still going on. And the date falls at 18/02/2011. Saye sungguh sayang die. <3

However nowadays ni die perangai skit. Entah lah ape masalah die eh .. anyway thats all for now. I'll update soon ok !

Toodles.